THE POWER OF GOD

It's only God
who's holding back my hand
from grabbing a knife
and stabbing myself with it.

TIDE

I thought this depression had gone away.
When the tide comes back
it crashes in like a wave.

REALIZATION

Flowers gently reflect the sun
As I pick them one by one
I gather up all of them
Until I realized I killed them

TO SEE BEYOND

What thoughts pass your mind
When you look at me?
Look at my dark Asian eyes
And tell me what you see.
Try to look past my so-called character
With all physical and emotional crack
Tell me who I am
Beyond my crooked back.
Forget my medical conditions
And my seemingly bossy ways,
Who am I to you?
Clear the mental haze.
Can you see who I actually am?
Can you see the real me?
Can anyone see the beauty
lying deep inside me?

ONE DAY

One day everyone will see
the ethereal loveliness
inside of me.

OKAY

Depends on your definition of okay
I'm okay
I'm dying
I'm happy
I'm bored
I'm tired
I'm depressed
I'm excited
I'm stupid
I'm eating
I'm starving
I'm writing
I'm reading
I'm heartbroken
But I'm okay.

BREAK ON THE INSIDE

I'm gonna be
a new kind of fake
So that I act above
my crazy emotions
while I break
on the inside.